Autumn Leaves, Coffee,And October Romantic Conversations
by The Pirate of Soleas Port(1)Paul stood in the window the steam from his coffee navigates its way to the window as well and lays itself onto the glass.
His thoughts move back and fourth between his anticipation of the Christmas holidays, which is such a beautiful and special time of the year for himself and Safallia. In some ways this time of the year sort of defines who Paul is in some natural kind of way.
And then his thoughts would go to Safallia and how this would be their first Christmas apart at least as a couple. They would still move in the same circles for the most part.
But it will not be the same, not like the holidays before. the two were doing the best they could to move on with their separate lives, and for the most part they made moving on look easy but the holidays would prove to be a test especially for these two very passionate people. Two days before thanksgiving and now the only question is who will referee this game of (no really I’m doing fine, we did the best thing, it just didn’t work) one of the two will say with a smile.
By the grace of god these two would not have to go it alone, that circle of friends will give new meaning to the phrase that’s what friends are for. Everyone was well aware of the hidden tension. this clearly was a case of two people who really loved each other very intensely and with a deep and defined loyalty ,who would have thought, Paul and safallia they were the tick and the tock, the go to couple, the perfect picture of love, but sometimes love is just not enough.
For Paul this thing of moving on appeared to be done with the ease of one who is somewhat emotionally unconnected to the break-up. but that could not be further from the truth.
For Paul the writer he sometimes saw it to put himself inside of a story to sort of take on a character.
At times it would seem that Paul was just a guy playing the role of a guy who just broke up with his girl, when
In fact Paul was the type of person that found it very hard to walk away from the people he loved. more so when he thought it was a time that they needed him most.
But Paul also was the type of guy that looked at life and understood it to be that things happen, sometimes things just fall apart. If you can hold it together or put it back together and make it work Good deal,
And then there are times when you just have to learn how to have different and separate lives.
The sound of the land line ringing brought a smile to Paul’s face, yes safallia he thought to himself turning to answer the phone.
How’s it going hot shot.
Ahh the all knowing and clear voyiant Pauli.
The one and only, what’s up fallie
Nah not much, but I was wondering is your mother going to be in town for the holidays.
I mean, I know things are different now but I would like to say hello to her,
You know Paul she’s totally out of this and I still think she’s the best.
[Yeah I know, but she’s going to be back home. my sisters will be back in Chicago for the holidays.
Plus other family members are coming in as well, so they’ll all be doing their thing back in chi-town
Safallia seemed some what disappointed but let on very little if any at all,
She was not one to complicate things.]
Well I guess I’ll see you around town.
Good deal, I’m sure we will bump into each other quiet a few times over the holidays.
Yeah how could we not.
This was not going to be easy for Paul, this was their time of year the holidays.
They were known as the holiday couple.
They had a connection it was one that they understood better than any one could imagine.
It was always just really right there the feelings, the emotions.
Just being close to her wiped out every thing else.
When ever Paul and Safallia were around each other it did not take much for these two know that they were totally feeling each other.
Paul had swore that he would never let her forget that he was connected to her, and always would be
He and he alone knew every inch of her being.
He was already missing her more than anything and it had only been not even a week.
Talk about double identity, he was her and she was him.
Paul thought to himself after hanging up the phone, god how cruel
would this be
to love her then lose her.
Knowing that there would be no one else after her .
How could he stay away from her. This would be so hard .Safallia knew Paul better than any one else.
trying to understand the inner workings of Paul could prove to be a task for any one.
But for Safallia knowing paul was like knowing herself there was no fear of the unknown,
With paul she was safe, there was no doubt that he loved her,
He had this way of looking deeply into her eyes in a one second take,
But every time he did look at her like that, it was like his eyes said I love you a thousand times.
In one second.
They would both put on their best face and try to get through the holidays
Why would these two try to do this, be around each other so soon after calling it quits.
It was clear to every one that they thought” that they could be the best of friends or at least pleasant towards each other
Paul’s life until Safallia had been had been pretty much just what he thought it should be.
Just what he thought it would be, and for the most part he would not have changed a thing.
He had a great life as a freelance writer, the perfect apartment in the city.
A great family back in Chicago , and a circle of friends that any one would love.
Paul had been very happy living one episode after another always writing the perfect ending
Happy but not complete, and then enters scene # 3 was safallia , paul had often referred to Safallia
As the third part of his life, he started with his family, then his life on his own
And now his life with her.
His leading lady he would say,
How did this happen, the break-up what direction were the two going and were they even going in the same direction at all.
Paul some one who had seen to much, to many people who had to little and had to struggle to hard to get what little they had, to many fat cats who just didn’t give a dam about any one, and too many people who were to afraid to look around and see who’s really down and out, for fear that some one might ask for help.
Safallia on the other hand ultra liberal and very naïve, a train wreck waiting to happen.
Paul just wanted to breathe without feeling anxiety.
A knock at the door sort of centered paul back into reality, setting his coffee down in the window sill and quickly heading for the door, under his breath he would call musa’s name and then just as he open the door he would raise his voice MUSA my man,[flinging the door open]
There stood musa. My man, ok so your in one of those moods.
Yeah what kind of mood is that paul replied, you know one of those motion picture moods like your paul robinson or somthin like that,
Paul robinson that's good. [paul laughs]
Musa and Paul had been friends from their early college days in new England,
Musa a native new Yorker, Paul after college had become a Chicago transplant into New York.
For the last twelve years these two had remain the closest of friends, confidants, brothers in the strongest since.
Both political history majors, a strong love and connection to the jazz world, cineima, and theater
The two also received minors in drama.
In short friends until the end.
Musa well aware that paul was approaching this whole break up thing with safallia as if he was ending a contract with his cell provider.
Relationships are never business like, because how two people defy the bottom line is always where things get blurred.
So how are you holding up dude,
That was a question that paul had not become quiet use of yet and he wanted this whole thing with safallia to transition into a more relaxed situation where they could just get passed this not being together thing.
But that was that part of paul that had always been a firm believer that in spite of disapointments and the wrong turns of relationships that life gose on.
But the other paul kept thinking this can’t be happening,
`this has to be one of those things where two people just sort of stop mid-air to see how they are.
Or one sort of stumbles and the other one helps them catch their balance but sort of has to wait for the other one to steady themselves.
He would think to himself, no way this is happening.
Before answering musa,s question paul offered a cup of coffee.
And then his response well musa right now I think I’m just trying to get through the holidays man ya know what I mean,
Yeah I get you man,
Paul not being one to miss an opportunity to make himself clear, continued on.
Musa oh my god dude” this is crazy” just eight days ago safallia and I were in this little second hand shop down in the village, buying that chest,
Pointing to the rather large and oversized leather bound chest, you wana know what it was that we really liked about that chest musa,[ pointing to the chest agin]
It was the portrait of that pirate and his bride [again pointing to the chest]
We had just bought paint for her dinning room, she wanted a color more similar to mine, you know like a holiday color.
Two weeks into December we’d be shopping for a tree, the day after thanksgiving start Christmas shopping.
Musa I am hopelessly in love with falley I always have been, and always will be, from the moment that we touched I knew it, were connected.
Musa, man I am telling you when I hold her I understand what love is, I understand what life is,
I understand her, and she understands me
You know what musa I don’t know anyone who loves the hoildays as much as falli .
I ,m doing ok to answer your question. This is just rough.
Yeah, yeah, I get you man,
I really didn’t mean to go on and on like that, Paul said setting setting his coffee down
You know what musa my man lets say we go outside and warm-up ole girl,
[ole girl was pauls 1989 jeep Grand Waggoneer she had a few rough edges but paul insisted on calling her
His diamond in the rough
You know it takes her about five minutes to warm-up, then she’s ready
You know she’s a diamond in the rough
Yeah, yeah, I know a real cubic zircornia in the rough.
The two friends trade laughs, yeah musa I could really go a cup of lobster bisque with just a hint of garlic.
Yeah man that lobster bisque sounds good, there only one place that I know that’s got the best lobster bisque in the city.
Sound’s like your thinking cav’s lebo’s ,
that’s what I’m thinking,
musa walk’s over to the coffee table sitting his cup down, and then picking up his coat and hat.
Paul quickly trails musa picking up the cup, musa oh my god, man you are rough,
Musa and paul head toward the door heading out into the now hard falling snow,
As the two friends travel down the steps musa makes paul laugh once again by saying,
You know I hear that at cav’s lebo’s its ok to sit your coffee mug down on the table without a coaster.
Meanwhile just three blocks away Safallia is at her apartment, and her thoughts for the last week had been on paul and how was he handling this whole break-up thing,
Was he feeling that same reality that she was feeling, or had he been able to escape the stress of not being with her, unlike paul safallia was not one of those people who could just write the perfect life that they
wanted to live in,
The only thing she could do was try to get through this, maybe this whole thing was just one of those things where two good people really want the same things out of life, but maybe one of them just sort of loses there emotional balance, that mutual shared compass for one of them has kind of gotten stuck or something, so the other just waits by their side until they get their bearings, the only question is who lost their balance, but one thing that safallia understood more than anything, was that there would be none of this rather its for the better or the worst, no matter what, just friends or back together again, they could not leave things the way they were
Safalia someone who had a constant need for music in her life always, even it was only some little song in her head, and today was not unlike any other day, only that song in her head was [its beginning to look a lot like Christmas ] and that thought enters her mind [song interrupted ] to herself she blurted out loud Safallia lets decorate girl… over to the C.D player, and in went the Charlie brown [peanuts] Christmas C.D .
Little did she know she was about to get a visit from a close friend, the sound of the door buzzing would once again song interrupted half flailing herself over to the intercom, yes who is it,
It was Naiema one of safallia’s closest friends, Naiema a true friend and who’s shoulders safallia could always lean on.
Like paul and musa, Safallia and Naiema had been friends also since college,
Happy holidays Safallia… let me up I’m about to freeze my little reindeer tail off,
With-in seconds the two women were hugging and twirling around safallia’s apartment and trading happy holidays ,
So safallia my dear and close friend who always, and I do mean always listens to the best holiday music in the whole wide world.
I love Charlie Brown so much naiema,
Dang girl, you’ve already hooked-up with another guy.
Shut-up naiema, all I’m saying is I really like listing to my Charlie Brown Christmas C.D ,
Safallia I was just kidding, you know I told myself not to ask you how you were doing,
You know you and paul,
So… how are you holding up.
Well actually I’m doing better than I thought I would be doing a week into this,
Safallia” what if you’ve already gotten over paul this quick, way ta’ go fally,
God I’m impressed,
No” naiema I’m not over paul yet, and trust me I don’t think there’s going to be a yet,
But I do believe that paul and I both are totally looking at this whole thing from some analytical point of view, you know its like were doctors and our relationship is our paient , you know.
Ok ,ok safallia, now paul is very analytical, not you but he is
And your a doctor Safallia replies with a little sarcasm, ok you kind of got that right girl, no but i play one on tv naiema returns the favor.
No naiema I’m serious I think its just that paul and I have a lot in common so we sort of think somewhat alike.
You know I was just thinking about how he always talks about growing up down south.
Oh my god dose he like to talk about his childhood, you know he loves to tell me about the watermelon man naiema slightly puzzled, the what kind of man.
The watermelon man is the man that would come to town from the rural area, and he would sell his produce, and vegetables from the back of his pick-up truck,
And guess he would also sell watermelons,
Paul said that the watermelon man was and old man who wore a straw hat, or a field hat I think paul called it and that he would drive his ole raggedy pick-up truck down the street saying “ watermelon, watermelon for sale, paul said that when they were very small that running behind the watermelon truck would the highlight of their day. I think that its so cool that he has all those memories to reflect on.
Well girl the way you talk about the watermelon man, someone would think that you had chased that truck yourself,
Safallia I’m just making fun of you, I think it’s great that he share’s his pre-Safallia life with you,
You know when a man dose that, you know tells you about his childhood, that means that his mother would approve of you,
It’s funny that you said that, because the first day his mom and I met , by the end of the day we were best friends, she wanted me to be around her all day.
Well then she’s a real smart cookie,
So naiema hows things going with you these days, you know what’s the latest episode of [as the political wheel turns in city hall] any breaking scandals, you know any torrid three-way love a fairs, secret tapes about bribery, stolen funds, buying of votes.
Yep, that all happened before noon, I think it was a slow day, but stay tuned, I do feel a scandal coming,
The mayor was spotted going through airport security sporting a fake nose, fake mustache and sunglasses.
Oh my god you love those folks don’t you,
Yes I do because I don’t have a life, but guess what, I’ve got my friends, naiema turns to safallia plopping on top of her head a set of prop reindeer antlers with little green and gold bells and then breaks into song and dance [hey you got have friends….. Ba do do do do do ,
Safallia not being one to pass up a classic song and dance,
Proclaims what the WHAT THE HEY, RENDEER GIRL, ALL TOGETHER NOW.
The two would once again take the song hostage,
Moments later Safallia and naiema would find themselves taking a rest on the sofa and also naiema would double check to make sure Safallia was really doing alright.
You know what faley I think your doing just fine, I mean I know it’s hard, but your really keeping it together,
What would I do without you guys, speaking of you guys, Drusilla and Frankie are suppose to stop by hmm.. Right about now ,
It would be only seconds and then the door would buzz again,
Yes who is it,
Safallia naiema, buzz us in its freezing, yeah, guys its Drusilla and Frankie, and WE HAVE WINE,
Naiema would greet then buzz the girls up, happy holidays guys, come on up,
The last of the reinforcements had come to support one of their own.
And about ten blocks away a similar support group was about to organize at cav’s lebo’s .
Musa and the guys were about to bring up the rear for paul their brother in arms as well as go to guy.
By now paul and musa had been at cav’s lebo’s long enough to engage in a little small talk while mostly talking about what is that secret ingredient that makes cav’s lobster bisque so phenomenal and to have been join by Jacob, and Abebraham
Paul really enjoyed spending time with his guys, spending time with safallia had always taken priority over all other aspects of his life, although his relationship with his family back in Chicago would not be unseated by any measure especially concerning his mother.
Paul had also somewhat remodeled his work as far as how traveling he did and how long he would be gone from the city.
Most of his stories now allowed him to stay in the state and not much further the new England states for the most part.
But spending time just hanging out with Musa, Jacob, and Abebraham, was just really time well spent.
It was with these guys he’d talked about critical and life defining decisions or at least somewhat.
For the most part paul was the type of person who made his decisions based mostly on the direction that his soul guided him, as well as his logical perception.
But still he had that need to keep his friends close,
It was Paul’s M.O always keep a small garrison close at all times.
So Musa, Jacob, Abe, how are the brothers doing in the time of these holidays,
Paul would lean back and sprawl his arms across the back of the bench where he and Abe were seated.
Oh lord here we go again, sounded Jacob, oh lord here’s goes what again, paul replied.
Your doing the king talking to his subjects at the round table thing,
Paul still reclining would again call for clarity, the king and subjects hmm…. really
Yep right there, the hmm…. Really thing, the leaning back arms spread like you just summoned us to round table, you know the great and wise king paul.
Man Jacob, I still have no idea how you keep throwing out that analogy of my personality,
Paul would now pull himself to the table, ok so what about you Musa, Abe, is Jacob on point,
Abe, determine to make paul laugh at himself, would reply, yes my lord it is so what young Jacob speaks of you, but only if it pleases you my lord,
Paul erupts in laughter, that English accent, that was pretty good Abe.
Paul knew that the guys were slowly working there way around to asking him about the break-up with him and Sedalia, he had a few concerns of his own pertaining to Abe and Jacob so he decided to do a little Q and A.
So Abe how’s things going with you and Maureen, I mean is your farther still against you guys being together,
Abe responded with no apprehension at all, oh my god, you know I keep asking myself how did I miss this I mean before I left home for college there was never any racist talk going on with my dad,
Yeah there was stuff about, so Abe when are you going to bring home that pretty Italian girl to meet your family, and I did take a pretty Italian girl home, Vanessa but you know what she wasn’t the one,
They were crazy about her, but after a year and a half Vanessa and I knew that it was going nowhere really fast.
I mean my folks knew that I would not think about settling down until I was about thirty, and so I thought Vanessa could be the one but she was not,
So for the next three years there was no one special, well in my family if their not special why ask about them,
So two years ago I meet Maureen, and she was special, I mean Maureen was the first black girl I had dated you guys know that, but I had no reason to call my folks up and say I’m dating a new girl oh and by the way she’s black, I mean my older brother dated a girl who was half Hispanic and half aisian.
Musa pulled in, yeah you would have thought that the coast was clear.
Abe continues you know the fact that my dad has issues about race yeah that disappoints me, but thats his struggle and I don’t really know if he even looks at it as a struggle,
I mean lately he’s been saying stuff like come on Abe just look at the news son, [their just not there and you know what they will never be, there, their just screw-ups don’t blame me, blame god, do yourself a big favor, and don’t do this to yourself.
He says he doesn’t have anything against blacks personally, he doesn’t believe in doing anything that would hurt his family.
You know I told him [come on dad there are no Italian screw-ups, we don’t rape, steal, murder, lie,
I mean hell we did all that to each other, you know the mob, hell look at sicsaly,
All I know is that you will find assholes in every race. And I know because I do watch the news, and I know history, there’s blood on everyone’s hand.
The more I understand about life, the more I can see that my dad dose not understand much at all, and he wonders how he lost it all.
You I love him, you know in the small since of the word he was a loving person, but in the bigger since of the word he never allowed himself to grow, I don’t fault him for what was he taught, but what he refused to learn that’s a different story.
There’s not much that he can really enjoy in life because his world is so small.
The world has changed,
It was silent for few seconds, and then Paul spoke, well said Abe, he’s blessed to have a son like you man.
Musa would pull in again, ok so i thought this was the holidays, Santa Clause, frosty the snow man, missal toe , food, folks, and fun, and drinks.
And point well taken, one Christmas Ale for Musa, with a side order of garlic wings.
Happy holidays back at cha Jacob Musa replied.
By the way Jacob how’s that soap opera thing going,
Ok, ok, brace yourselves, but you are looking at Shannon bay’s memorial newest E.R doctor
Doctor Dylan Michael Binwhar
Brain surgeon by day, hot nurse banger by night.
And two thousand an episode too boot.
Abe break’s into applause way to go Jacob, way to go dude, Abe and Jacob were roommates the acting jobs were somewhat slack lately, Abe had been catching that slack for Jacob.
Well paul looks like we’ve got every one covered accept you, Abe said.
Are you and Safallia talking about the break-up, or are you two just sort of avoiding the whole thing,
You know what fella’s safallia and I have been talking a little, but for the most part were just giving each other our own space.
But I have decided to call her up and just feel the water’s you know just see where her heads at I mean I know where my head’s at, I really think that I needed this time apart, but I didn’t think that we would be letting it go all together, that’s what I can’t wrap my mind around, how did we get to this.
I mean you guys know how safallia and I feel about each other, there’s no doubt in my mind she’s the one.
But lately it just seems like we’re wanting somewhat different things out of life, I mean for the last four and a half years we’ve been on the same page.
Hey I don’t want to lay all of this on you guy’s, I mean it is the holidays.
Again Abe would recognize that Paul needed to talk, working in the mental health field he’s seen way too many people hold it in and then frustration set’s in, and then comes regret.
Hey, hey, paul that’s why I’m here, I mean if not here man, then call me later,
Nah, nah, it’s just good to get the prospective of other’s man,
Look I have really put a lot of time and effort into becoming the person that I am,
And I got to tell you I really love my life, I mean my writing has really gone in the direction I’d hoped for.
You know I’m doing the kind of stories I want, its very lucrative, my lifestyle is pretty comfortable,
But Safallia’s got this thing in her head about going back into practicing law,
Yes I know she only practiced law for four years, and then she decided that she that she wanted to teach, and I was very supportive of her choice to do that, but now two years later she’s talking about being this advocate for the wrongly convicted, you know I don’t think she has any idea of how stressful this will prove to be,
Safallia dose not have the stomach for evil, and lets face it even some of these people that turn out to be innocent still have a very evil past, I know I’ve done stories on the wrongly convicted,
Musa would comment, yeah man sometime that kind stuff is best done by people who don’t have relationships that they have to consider, when you don’t have a significant other, you have less to worry about, and then you could possibly do a better job, but hey I’m just saying.
No I think your right Musa Paul said continuing on.
I mean I ‘m not saying there should not be a voice for them, but that stuff you can’t leave it at the office you have to take it home with you, and you have to let it inside of your head, and trust me sometimes one of these cases will completely shut you down emotionally and not to mention spiritually,
And defending these people can be a danger to your life,
And how do I not get sucked in. there’s no way I don’t get sucked in, I would have to be there for her.
Look I am all for giving and helping the disanfranchies, I write a lot of stories about the wrongs of society,
I have a very strong concern for the have not’s, I mean I completely understand that is a such thing as the less fortunate, but there are a lot of people who’s lives are less complicated, people who have their freedom but their still locked up in a prison, and that’s the prison of ignorance, the prison of being uneducated,
The prison of dysfunction, a soul that hang’s in the void, totally disconnected from any understanding concerning the love and mercy of god, how to avoid self- destruction your lost when your uneducated and faithless.
I love to see people avoid becoming a victim of circumstance,
Paul slowly but surely Paul made his closing,
CHAPTER TWO. OK. SO I GEUSS IT’S TIME TO TALK ABOUT THIS
Meanwhile back at Safallias place the girl’s had not covered quite as much ground as the guys
But this would not be the case for much longer thanks to Frankie.
So Safallia let’s get the guy talk out of the way because we are getting ready to jingle our little Christmas bells ok.
Over the years Frankie had been able to secure the title, of most likely to get ahead of herself.
And there were no rivals in sight.
But drucilla also had a way of putting things in a proper prospective.
Ahh.. Frankie how about we get through thanksgiving first, and play Christmas by ear
I really dont understand this whole christmas in october thing you guys have going.
Thats because you are an outsider, the last of the four amigos or amigirls
Frankie lets go in laughter.
The girls had unbenounced to them formed a sort of unconventional circle one on the couch, one on a table.
One on the floor. And so on.
Well guys this is what I think has happened between me and Paul.
Paul has become very use to being the one who sets the course, and this is relative in anything he dose.
When it comes to the big stuff he’s totally aware of this part of himself.
The small stuff most times he totally unaware of that need to take charge.
don’t’ get me wrong, the guy has a good track record, he has great ideas, and a since of focus like you would not believe, and he always tries to be fair in his dealings, and ninety- nine percent of the time he backs up what he says,
I mean in short he’s a good leader,
But sometimes I think he forgets that when he was single, yeah he could call all the plays, I mean if he didn’t
Who would have, no one right,
But now he is not single, there’s me and I think that sometime Paul forgets how to be a team player,
You know sometime he forgets to pass the ball.
You know like he has chosen himself as m. v. p ,
I really think that Paul has a fear of not being in control, but in life no one has control all of the time.
I think that it’s a matter of trust when it comes to sharing your life with someone.
Drusilla nod’s you know I’ve heard of this, some people, you know their the creative type.
Have a strong need to always direct, its their show you know their the writers of life.
Everyone’s life. Their trustworthy but everything is a work of art,
And their the Michelangelo, the Vincent van Gogh, so it’s trust but verify
You know what guys, hold up, I’m not bashing him
I mean I lets get this clear I love this guy, and he’s a great guy it’s just that no matter how hard I try I can’t get him to just fall back and know that I’m going to be there to catch his fall, and as much as I hate to say it he’s going to fall one day.
Yeah, I don’t have all the in’s and out’s of the business world, but i pretty much know the world of the life and your never safe, never, in life there’s always something that can go wrong,
I mean people die, we get sick, even the very young get sick and die, we lose our jobs, our money, someone will wake-up tomorrow and just walk away from everything no question’s answered, just a big ole, I don’ want this anymore,
You know I’m a firm believer that you get damaged in life via someone’s ignorance, or sometime’s via the hand’s of someone who knew just what they doing, they knew they would end up hurting you
it’s your faith that allows you to keep going, its’ knowing that a word spoken is not a word etched in stone.
You know, when it comes to relationships, you can’t have one without trust,
You know Paul always says that he has complete faith in the lord, that the lord and the lord alone is the one that he trust, and I understand that, I mean I know that in a very human way he puts a certain amount of trust in those that are close to him. And I know that I am one of those people, I just want him to know that while he and I may differ on where some of our convictions lie, but the way I feel is that if I were headed down any road that would hinder or cause Paul and I to lose sight of each other,
That I would, you know turn around in a split second and run right back to where he was .
There’s nothing, no convictions that I would follow if there was a half a chance that something would put us under, he has great intuition, but so do I,
I guess all I ‘m really saying is that I am very capable, and that’s the way I feel about he and I and i wont change.
About that same time Paul and the guys were wrapping up their night at cav’s lebo’s,
Paul stood up looking at his watch, he really needed to speak with Safallia, this whole thing is getting crazy he thought to himself.
Well brothers looks like ole cav’s is to busy to come over and say hi,
Yeah, looks like were going to have to catch ole cav,s another day, besides I think I’m going to call up Sedalia, and see if I can talk some things over, so I will catch you guys in a few days, so Musa are we doing this turkey thing at your place, Musa confirms Paul’s question about thanksgiving dinner arrangements
You got it brother-man, ok-ok let me get it right, yes my lord, if it pleases you sire there shall be a place prepared for his highness
Preparing himself for the elements Paul puts on his coat, scarf gloves and hat,
Not being able to keep a straight face, Paul in laughter reaches out to shake Musa hand.
Ah Musa just cut me an inch right now and you know what I’ll come back for the mile later.
Well fella’s god willing I will spend some more quality time with the brotherhood in a few days.
It was about an hour later and Paul was now standing in the foyer of Safallia’s apartment building dialing the code to her apartment, and then her voice, hello, Sedalia hey how’s it going it’s Paul.
The sound of Paul’s voice started Sedalia heart pounding. But she would hold it together starting in high gear was not something Safallia liked doing.
Paulie you’re here, hold on paulie just let me, yeah one second paulie, cutting her words short Paul could here Sedalia moving away from the door. And then about a minute later the door opens,
Sorry Pauli I was not properly dressed, you understand.
I mean yeah, I understand Faille, I didn’t mean to rush over, I mean you know if you weren’t ready for my
Being here.
Oh Pauli, you rushing anywhere I can not see that, not even to see me, what’s your motto Pauli [hey look just give yourself enough time to get there.]
You know Safallia you should really write a book of famous quotes by Paul,
And yes I would rush to my last breath if I could only take it in your arms.
God Pauli you really know all the right things to say, so how have you been Pauli,
Yeah I’m good theses days or at least somewhat good.
What about you, have you been making out ok.
Well, yes Pauli, yes I guess I’m doing ok- you know
This whole thing is crazy, so crazy.
Paul had told himself that he just wanted to know that she was ok
And then it came out, God fallie i miss you so much.
There will never be a righteous reason for me and you to be apart.
You know they say that you are who you love, and I really believe that, because I am you and you are me.
We are one, one love, one union, one understanding, one destination, just simply one.
Safallia could only look and know that once again that her and Paul were united as one
This was the time when they had to know, but how would they know, could they understand the greater plan,
Was it about these two individuals and what they thought they wanted, or was this something much more
Perhaps this was about what they could do together as one ,may be this was about Paul learning that nothing could be done by one person alone, maybe this was about Safallia believing that faith was a real thing that it
Was not about solely, having someone to count on, or at least some earthly help.
The balance as Paul referred to it, a need for earthly companionship, and then the understanding that you can never count on totally any one earthly person,
What made Paul such a loner, what made him so independent, Paul so visual so much a person who needed
To see and feel everything so how did he not have a need to see and feel his ultimate faith.
Safallia just stood there trembling in sets wrapping both arms around her shoulders almost as if she was literally holding herself together, nothing short of an unconscious plea for consoling, Paul ever unconsciously vigilant of every aspect of this woman who has always been so natural in his life.
Would with one gentle stroke lay his hand to the side of her face then softly to the back of her neck,
And then bringing his precious little lamb into the warm and secure fold of his arms.
The storm was yet to be over but the winds of uncertainty had began to calm somewhat and the two who
had always been one, could clearly see that they were still standing firmly on that foundation of faith and understanding, but had they laid this foundation to be strong enough had they anchored their faith securely
Would it all crumble ,and would it all be swept away.
Hey you know what button-pie on the way over I heard our song.
Safallia knew the song that Paul was talking about, really
Yeah really Coltrane’s Central Park West and I knew that I would always be in love with you.
Pauli October, Central Park, Autumn Leaves, The Sunday Times, the smell of Irish Cream in Coffey.
When I look back there are just so many things that leads me back to you.
Yeah that’s why we scattered them behind us along the way,
You know so we could always find our way back to each other.
Pauli I could not imagine the holidays without you and I going shopping for gifts together, visiting our friends together.
You know Fallie I feel funny saying this but I think that my role in this break-up thing
Is that I worry that I want be able to give you all the things you need, I mean I guess I’m pretty good at making decisions that are great for me, and by association great for others who are connected to me, but that’s just it, sometimes I don’t know what you want, and if the things you do want if they will be good for you or me. I know you are your own voice, Safallia still embracing Paul but now leaning her upper body back, Pauli, Pauli, I know what your feeling and I just want you to know that yes we will be our own voice but we will always hear each other we will never drown each other out.
and our greater voice will be as one.
Safallia and Paul in spite of this break-up thing still had that magnetic playmate element between the two of them.
You what Pauli, I have no idea why this thought entered my mind but you still have my swing out sister CD don’t you.
Yeah you what know dude your right I do, in fact there’s one song on that CD that really reminds me of you
Yeah Pauli which one is that.
That would the one called a beautiful mess.
Yeah pauli just remember the key word is beautiful.
This story is yet to be finished more to come it is a work in some sort of progress
LOL
Article submitted Friday, July 16, 2010 & read 23 times.
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» left by NE (51 days 2 hours ago.)
If this was set to music -what song would go with it ?Respond to this comment
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Question is did Paul Finish his coffie ?Respond to this comment
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left by author, i,am new to this so bare with methe two stories titled the same as this one has type-o'smissspellings ect....i will remove them soon.this is alittle more proper.the one with the shortest time up.It is the hope of this author to inspire the reader.To see that we are natural and that we should struggle tostay human,Just some things and places that inspire me1]miles davis2]Coffee3]sailing on the ocean4]michale franks [jazz]5]the talented mr. rippley6] new york city.7]danny wilson [pop jazz] meet danny wilson8]things made of wood9] fine leather shoes10] garlic11] swing out sister12]old things and old people13] squirrls14]fall and winter.15]simply red16]spear head jazz hip hop17]earnest hymmingway.18]the rootsMay you be blessed and touched by the beautiful thingsray MitchellRespond to this comment
